Hug perspective tomorrow by looking back

I expect of liberation, liberation of mind and moves.

I don't know when I lose my thorny tempered personality. A year ago while I was a college student, was not I a liberal with the right and nerve to criticize everything or people as I think they are somewhere unproper? At that time, I lonely enjoyed the pleasure of such memorable free speech and exertion of sufficiency, with no any realistic restrictions. I did not need to care about others' criticism or isolation. Following my heart, I once was so much a cool hedonist though miserable in my heart.

But, now how much have I changed？ What growth brings to me is not just my barely rising to the occasions, but also loss of some of my simple nature and richful ideal mind. I don't know whether it deserves or not. I am not sure if I make progress on my way of life. What I am clear of is I should be a follower with the ongoing time and life. I will not be a lamster by the principle of time and space. It's inevitable for everyone to move forward. I am not an exceptional. But I am wondering if I can make some differences which is what I aim at and boost as a dream since my college.

Comparing to the past, I have changed a lot, including my age, state of mind and status. I am a year older and become a little bit polished. I have experienced the bittersweet two people's world while I was not as hot in my heart as others. However, there are something of my inner self that does not change at all. I still perform as a lonely soul though I am not the single one. And I still embraces my past dream and belief I have never given up.

My present life disappoints me. I am yearning for getting out of the boundaries which restricts too much of my behaviors and imprisons me to breath fresh air. I am thirsty for some relief and satisfaction which may be like the firey coal in the cold winter warming my icey body and heart, and like the spring breeze conveying the pleasing information. It's time to break the oppresive states. I will try in a bigger stance.