New experience of life

Once a close college classmate commented,"you don't understand girls". Yes, she is right. After distancing females so many years when is someone's most important growth period, what I know about the generality of woman is indeed very less. As to behaviors of most girls around, I don't know them and also have no interest at all.

These days, I become a little bit "civilized" for my love experience of a short period. I have felt and been told some typical female psychology and moves, which enhances my previously short understanding of girls throughout the growing time since I was always standing in the distance to watch them or reading them on paper.

Apart from the above, I get to know something more about a cultural adult's sufference for their wits' temporary ending during social life which I could not believe before as a college student. I took it for granted that if someone suffers for that, that's because they are incapable.

Looking back, I am now not sure if my past opinion is wrong or my present standard is too low. But, as an experience, it's an important feeling I should cherish. After all, it's all about life.

Hug perspective tomorrow by looking back

I expect of liberation, liberation of mind and moves.

I don't know when I lose my thorny tempered personality. A year ago while I was a college student, was not I a liberal with the right and nerve to criticize everything or people as I think they are somewhere unproper? At that time, I lonely enjoyed the pleasure of such memorable free speech and exertion of sufficiency, with no any realistic restrictions. I did not need to care about others' criticism or isolation. Following my heart, I once was so much a cool hedonist though miserable in my heart.

But, now how much have I changed？ What growth brings to me is not just my barely rising to the occasions, but also loss of some of my simple nature and richful ideal mind. I don't know whether it deserves or not. I am not sure if I make progress on my way of life. What I am clear of is I should be a follower with the ongoing time and life. I will not be a lamster by the principle of time and space. It's inevitable for everyone to move forward. I am not an exceptional. But I am wondering if I can make some differences which is what I aim at and boost as a dream since my college.

Comparing to the past, I have changed a lot, including my age, state of mind and status. I am a year older and become a little bit polished. I have experienced the bittersweet two people's world while I was not as hot in my heart as others. However, there are something of my inner self that does not change at all. I still perform as a lonely soul though I am not the single one. And I still embraces my past dream and belief I have never given up.

My present life disappoints me. I am yearning for getting out of the boundaries which restricts too much of my behaviors and imprisons me to breath fresh air. I am thirsty for some relief and satisfaction which may be like the firey coal in the cold winter warming my icey body and heart, and like the spring breeze conveying the pleasing information. It's time to break the oppresive states. I will try in a bigger stance.

Review of the Wenchuan earthquake

I once thought I was strong enough to bear the heartbreaking occasions after many suffering experiences. But I was wrong. Facing the catastrophic tragedy and scenes,I could not help standing it but crying. I cried for the lost lives and the dead city which was once vital, for the moving noble stories coming out at the moment of the natural attack.

Great Man, creating the wonderful land with wisdom and perspiration, in the moment appeared to be so helpless and powerless. Except the usual superficial control and application of the resourses around, it fell head down to the nature with so many lives lost in a moment and once beautiful living land destroyed.

Today is a just year since that destructive day. Now, a lot of people are using their differnent ways to remember the eventful day, mourn for the lost or show sympathy and bring light to the survival of that fatal calamity. I am one of those people. I am writing here for the miserable memories and grievous sufferance.

One indispensable and inevitable part of life should be to taste the bitterness about others or ourselves. After experiencing it, except for some heart darkened ghosts or perverts, most people will understand more about themselves and life. They will not only cherish the moments of their being alive, they will aso be glad and generous to bring attentiveness and light to others, especially those on sufferance.