Expectations of my 2009

I promise to make some differences in 2009. It’s the time after I graduate from university for about a year and I should achieve something out.

I have read and watched many of my predecessors’ common and characterless lifelines which I can not stand. It’s cruel to follow their patterns. My knowledge and experiences tell me a goal should be obtained as early as possible. Otherwise, ruthless time will torture my determination and patience, let alone my other worries emerging and even increasing by my age. Thus, I need to do something urgently this year.

In the past, I was an English major. I would rather forget it. It’s embarrassing to tell it out that my English sucks indeed. How I hope I could have excellent English! But now I have to take time to further study it. Being proficient in English is one of my expectations in 2009. I should take every time and way to turn it into reality. No excuse for my less improvement in English anymore. Instead, I should be grateful that I still have time and chance to make English up.

Moreover, I will make big progress on my public performance. Though sometimes I still lack confidence to give a speech in public and worry about loss of face if I behave poorly, I should be bold enough to take my trial. Only in this way, I can avoid my further poor public performance and possible loss of face. It’s a psychological barrier I should get out of. In the long run, the ability to perform well in public is a necessity for a successful career. I certainly need it. Just like what CEO said, many chances are grasped by ourselves on the fact that opportunities knocks rare on the door. I should strive for more chances to practice myself whenever I could.

Colored freedom and democracy

As to us who have attended higher education, we probably understand more about freedom and democracy than others. During our student age, we even always indulge in the rights of our freedom and democracy on many unusual cases. You will understand what I am talking about. However, to most of us, except the rarely few peculiars, can we insist on our past free behavior after involving ourselves more in the regular society? You may have the same answer as I have.

Sometimes, I hear some of my close friends complaining of their unwillingly giving up in the work place and social occasions. How I understand their situation and moods. I am not an exception and I guess all of us may have similar story during our growth. But, whether we should choose to react oppositely or yield a little to the situation, I am prone to the latter. Of course, that opinion is just for us who have already started our realistic society life. To some extent, our higher education background is just a fundamental preparation process for our future life in the society. In university, we should not just splurge our freedom and democracy; the more important thing may be to understand the rules of society spiritually.

The above is certainly not my whole point. I want to write about colored freedom and democracy. We know, people are categorized as white and colored. And I think the partition is not just limited to those concrete and live. Abstract things also have colors, such as today’s topic freedom and democracy.

As common human rights, freedom and democracy are like a beacon blazing a great deal of people and may be dreamed of by many more. However, the disappointing fact is we hardly enjoy them without barriers especially after we enter the society. As colored people are discriminated sometimes, freedom and democracy are barely welcome and respected on many working places and other social occasions. That’s the rule of the society and exists in almost all industries. We are expected and in some way made to bow. That’s the truth of life.

Memory of 2008

Too many big issues are recorded in history of the unquiet and remarkable 2008. As a Chinese, things happening in China catch me more in my eyes. Man-made disasters like train collision, Tibetan riot and the Olympic torch relay disturbed shocked me and stimulated nerves of many of us Chinese. We are angry and feel unprecedented unity in our mind toward the outside of the world. Though the nature causing calamities add pain in our chest, our solidarity and morale increase facing problems from the domestic and abroad. In the ongoing challenging time, we finally meet the successful Olympics in Beijing. It’s my first time to sense glory of a whole nation.

The year of 2008 never lacks of striking happenings. And I don’t mean to mention much more about them here. As an individual, I would more like to stress my personal experiences during the year when I look back. Personally, 2008 is important and worth to remember and conclude. I, from a college student who finally finished his school education, stepped into the realistic society to take my chance and anneal myself following the regular principle. It’s the time I have dreamed for many years. For it, I have sometimes even missed the point what I need to engage in. However, entering the society at last implies many required changes. In the work days, I made mistakes and progress, adjusted much of my original concepts to the requirement of work and procedures. Change is always termed as good. I wish my changes should also be that as well.

Regretfully and honestly speaking, I did not give much out in the eventful 2008. And my harvest on desk did not meet my expectation, either. To me, my diction to exculpate myself is the 2008 is more of a silent process. During it, I cooled myself down to follow the way of the world, adjusted to follow the social rules, and made preparation for the coming burst-out. It will be a long waiting with thick accumulation to meet it. 2008 is already past. Let’s send it away solemnly and jump upon the new time with brand new stance. Now, 2009 is right upon us. Regarding to the hopeful new year, we all must have many great expectations to look forward to. I believe by our efforts under determination and persistence, we will be really something by the end of 2009. To you aiming big changes on yourselves, let’s strive for the good future together.

The victorious red flag is beckoning us with welcome in the front.

Prelude

It's a special time and trial when I start to carry on the new and special. How do I feel now pressing the keyboard and beginning my blogging voyage? I am now surprised, excited and more comforted.

For a long time, I have thought of myself and also termed by part of people knowing me as older that my real age. Honestly, such experience accompanies with me since I have my memory. In my mind, I have barely enjoyed the "wonderful" youth times and pleasures like others. My past is grey and mostly covered in clouds. How pathetic!

As we know, the old is often considered conservative and hard to accept new things. I in some way am similar to those people. As a young adult, I don't share the same interest and topics with peers but in much time advocate wrinkly or above their age. Facing to the new technologies especially IT and internet, little is gained though I take some trials, Blogging is one of the examples.

While I was in the University, many classmates learned to make a lot of improvement on blogging beside others by internet. However, to me, it appeared too new to study. By the end of my school education, I have not known what it's about though I heard it's useful and easy to use. Even from others' casual words in front of me, I still did not get clear of what blogging is.

Those days, I tried to learn blogging again under request of a good friend. It seemed much easier than before this time, part of which may be because of his guidance. And I indeed felt its convenience and attractiveness in depth. Thus, I could not wait any longer to open my own blog and enjoy it.

From today on, I am in essence a member of bloggers. I know trial will never be late. But I do hope it's not too far behind for me to follow up the trend. Instead of striving not to be left behind, I hope this move of mine is just to meet the trend head on.

In the following days, I will leave my footprints here and share the memorable moments with ideas, good or bad, bitter and sweet. You may also have similar experiences and opinions. Your joining in my blog will be warmly welcome and received.